This morning I made a shocking discovery as I prepared to take a bath. I'm sure many of you will find this gross and TMI and, as a full grown man, it's pretty embarrassing to admit. I almost don't know how to say this, but I found a skid mark! Please don't judge me or stop reading here. I ONLY share this because it led me to consider an important spiritual principle.

I was in the shower the other morning praying, singing, etc... you know, just trying to start my day off practicing the presence of God. While doing so, I sensed God say to me that He never leaves home. Obviously, that sounds like a pretty boring life, so I was anxious for Him to explain. I didn't immediately grasp the gravity of that statement until I kept chewing on it and He elaborated a little more. Here's what He shared with me...

I was in the bathtub this morning crying as I thought about how wonderful God has been to me. I became so overwhelmed that I felt compelled to stop simply telling Him how wonderful He is, and to declare His greatness publicly! What greater format than twitter (http://twitter.com/anthonytheseer) to release a public rapid fire of thoughts and have a written record of what's on your heart! Let's just call today's entry a personal love letter to God, in the form of "tworship"...

The last few days have been filled with mixed emotions for me. I've not been overly happy or overly sad. There's just been a "blahness" about my existence. I'm tired of juggling bills, carrying other people's burdens, dealing with heartache, worrying about my future, etc. I know many will say that I'm not dealing with anything that EVERYONE in this world isn't dealing with too. Well, if this is all the world keeps offering me, I honestly don't want to stay in it ONE day longer. While reading my bible and praying this morning, I decided that TODAY will be my last day in this world!

While in the bathtub this morning I was meditating, worshipping, and doing a little praying for myself and other people when my heart became slightly heavy. It's no secret that times are really hard for lots of people and many find themselves struggling more than ever. However, that wasn't the main source of the unrest in my spirit. What hurts my heart most is the alarming increase of child abuse accusations that are popping up as people try to cope with the traumatic experiences in their lives.

I have nothing truly insightful to say other than children should be celebrated! There's no secret how much I love my daughter. I understand how God feels about me when I look into her eyes. Click "Continue Reading" to enjoy an original short-film highlighting her first halloween...

I like to believe that I'm a pretty decent person and I'm fairly happy with the man I'm becoming. However, I'll spare you the long drawn out attempt to create suspense before I get to the punch line of what's on my heart right now. Despite, my many unlisted great traits I have a HUGE character flaw that has almost crippled my life.

I woke up this morning feeling a little guilty over some mistakes I made recently. However, the strangest thing happened as soon as I began to rehearse my sins in my head. I sensed God's presence at war with my thought process. You see, YEARS of church has conditioned me to believe that God is angry with the sinner and ready to punish EVERY evil deed that I perform in this temple that He has given me. Surely, I should beat myself up and focus on my wrongdoings in order to show God how sorry I am and possibly attract a morsel of His mercy to be extended towards me in the form of forgiveness.  But what God revealed to me this morning literally KNOCKED ME UNCONSCIOUS!

There are few things that I can think of that are more aggravating than not being able to sleep. When my daughter was days and weeks old it was pretty hard adjusting to being forced to wake up several times throughout the night because of her crying. I didn't care how cute she was, she was getting on my nerves! She sleeps through the night now but sometimes I have to keep her awake until her bedtime to ensure that she adheres to her schedule and doesn't wake up before time. She HATES that! She doesn't care if I'm playing with her or talking to her, when she's sleepy she's CRANKY! Well, despite her ability to sleep all night now, I haven't slept well in months! Needless to say, it's been pretty aggravating. The frustrating part is I really think it's God's plan that I am so restless right now. To be REALLY honest, I think He wants to share something with me but He has a terrible communication problem...

It's been a long time since my last blog entry and one of the reasons is the beautiful little girl that you see in the picture above. On December 4, 2010 my life changed when Quinn Heiress Brielle McPherson entered the world. Since that day, my entire existence has been consumed by catering to her every need and whim. The truth of the matter is I am totally and unashamedly in love with this gift from God. In the six months since she was born I stopped caring about dating, partying, shopping, blogging, sleeping, traveling, etc. The only things I've really wanted to do were to see her EVERY day, buy her clothes and toys, and spend as much time with her as humanly possible. She has brought immeasurable joy into my life and I can't thank God enough for allowing me to be her father. However, also since her birth, there has been this gloomy presence lurking within my thoughts and dreams at night. I often wake up sweating and nearly in tears as a result of these reoccurring nightmares. It happened again EARLY this morning and despite my short and specific sexual history, I entertained for a moment if this haunting vision about me could actually be true. Do I really have another child out there that I don't know about?