I had SEX last night with THREE girls!

Posted: Wednesday, September 22, 2010 by Anthony in
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I just woke up from a very vivid dream that SEEMED to last all night! I don't know whether to be grateful or disturbed. During the dream I kept waking up and falling back asleep and each time a different girl was in my bed. I'll be honest and admit that two of them are girls I've actually had sex with before. You can stop reading now if you think this post is going somewhere because I can't promise you that there is a point. I will say, however, that I'm a little disturbed by the dream. You see I'm genuinely trying to make sure I don't repeat the mistakes of my past, yet I feel myself being tempted to be worse than ever.

My numbers are low and I wasn't THAT bad, by most people's standards, but my OWN conscience is bruised by my failure to wait 'til marriage to give my prized penis away! (The story about my stolen virginity will be in a future post) It's obvious to me that SEX (because of how good it feels) is a gift from God. However, HE never intended for us to be CONTROLLED by anything but HIS spirit, which is LOVE. I, like many men, have a really strong desire to see, hear, smell, taste, and touch naked women. Nevertheless the bible and my personal history have proven that whatever you yield yourself to becomes your master. It is virtually impossible to repeatedly engage in a behavior without giving it some authority over your life.

BACK TO THE DREAM... I believe dreams are either products of our subconscious, messages from God, or devices of our spiritual enemy. I'll place this one in all three categories. My subconscious has Lil' Wayne's "Every Girl" on repeat; God's message to me is to keep my penis in my pants; and the devil is using my own lusts to tempt me! I'm happy to report that I ANTicipate winning this battle as I step closer to God, move farther and farther away from groupies and ignore the devil. I'm about to go and talk with HIM for a few minutes about this and other issues, ask and thank HIM for help, and then maybe I'll come back and post something else. Either way, ANTicipate a better life family! All things are possible!

6 comments:

  1. Wow! I think you have tapped into your next real source of development. I'm excited about your future...
    Operspective

  1. Anthony says:

    Thanks Brien! I know you've been writing for years! I see why now! It's very liberating!

  1. Tamiko says:

    I love your candor here, Anthony! Everyone has that "thorn in their flesh" that makes them vulnerable to attacks. I'm glad you're honest in saying, "Hey, this is something I've struggled with IN MY PAST!" Hallelujah!! Your sharing will make it easier for others to admit their battles, taking power away from the enemy and giving God the opportunity to reign Supreme.

  1. Anthony says:

    Thanks Tamiko! I wrestle daily but God gives me the victory!

  1. Jen says:

    You and I have known each other a long time and even tho all I had was class with you we have a lot more in common that you or I knew. It takes a lot to admit that and no sin is greater than the next. I'm right there beside you. I've told my story to many people and I'm not ashamed of it. I'm ashamed of what I continue to do. People don't believe me when I tell them God never meant for us to "lay" (in the biblical sense) with someone but if we did it was good in the eyes of God as long as it was in the bed of marriage. That's what I believe but can't say I've practiced it. That's not my story...that's everybody's struggle. I really enjoy reading what you wrote and please believe...I KNOW!!!

  1. I believe that your candor here in this last piece has the power and the transparency to set people free!! Amazingly enough every single person that begins reading this will buckle down for a good ol' juicy read and when the reader gets to the "heart" of the missive then and only then will the conviction hopefully begin to set in and take residence. I am in awe of your honesty and the integrity in which you share....I ANTicipate the next entry as this one has caused me to reexamine the "glass house" in which I live....